I have never been able to nurse our kids for any kind of extended time. I now believe that this happened because I always wanted to have my freedom and so I would try and pump instead of just nurse. I don’t think my body takes well to interventions..ie pitocin to get labor started, c-sections, etc.
First, I have to say I could never nurse Silas like I do if it wasn’t for the absolute love and understanding of my wonderful husband, Micah. Things just don’t get done (as quickly or at all). Nursing is the #1 priority. I was talking to Micah last night and I said it was kind of scary to think about that I am what is keeping lil Silas alive. I am his only food source. No only that, but the food source I can’t even see so I never really can tell how much he has eaten. For a person who likes to be in control, this is difficult. It id difficult to not get all the things done that I want to get done during the day. Sometimes it makes me downright crazy. But, I wouldn’t change it for anything. They are only young once. I know all too well how fast they grow ( I can’t believe I have an almost 16 yr old). This is the season I am in. It will pass and I will probably wish I was still in it.
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens. Ecclesiastes 3:1